If I had my way I would...

...be a messenger of God.

I'm just gonna start by saying that CC3 Camp was amazing. So many amazing things happened to all of us during this camp,and it would take too much time to write down every single thing that happened. I'm just gonna try to summarize the main things that happened in these 3 days as best as I can.

When we first entered St Teresa's Retreat Centre,the walls were filled with sheets of paper with "If I had my way I would..." on it. We started the camp with a few worship songs and we were eventually split into our groups. My group was the smallest group,cause Zachery and Elyza could only come later in the day. I ended up having Sharmaine as my only group member and my 2 facils were Michael Bernard and Jesslyn. The day went on and it was basically on the different sins and temptations that teens our age fall into. I teared during the sharings,cause each and everyone of us shared really personal things about our lives,the different sins we commit,the problems we face.The whole day more or less ended with us having to go for confession. Out of the 4 priests,I ended up going to Fr Steven Yim for confession. I felt really at peace after confession. 

The second day. Sunday 27 May 2012 5.45pm,The day God sent me a message. After Charlene's session in the afternoon,we had 45 minutes to walk around St Teresa's Church. Charlene was sharing with us that during this 45 minutes,especially after her session,you may end up receiving a sign from God,you may end up finding your confirmation name,you may end up experiencing God. My eyes were tightly closed in the main room. Once I felt a cathecist's hand tap my shoulder,I opened my eyes,stood up and walked out of the main room to start my 45 minute journey with God. As I was walking from the main room to the stairs,I prayed, "Lord,lead me to where you want me to go." I walked towards the stairs and eventually found myself on the 3rd floor balcony. I waited and surveyed my surroundings,but nothing happened,there was no sign from God. I was really sad at that moment and I really felt so lost. At that time I was still wondering if I would be able to find my confirmation name,as what Charlene mentioned. I was already thinking of Gabriel,I was hoping to maybe find a statue of St.Gabriel,or maybe some sort of biography of St.Gabriel. It was around that moment when I noticed the Columbarium. There were these little white circular roofs showing the different areas of the Columbarium. I just kept staring at the one at the most right. I kept staring and I couldn't get my eyes off it. I was thinking to myself(sarcastically),"What? I'm going to find something there?" But something just kept my gaze towards that direction. Isaac and Sarah eventually found the 3rd floor balcony and they were also staying there to spend their 45 minutes. Charlene was telling us that it's best to be alone,so I decided to walk down to stairs and I just walked towards the Columbarium. As I got closer and closer to the Columbarium,nothing could divert my attention,and as I entered the Columbarium,I told myself,"God,give me a sign. Any sign. Maybe something about the name Gabriel." I turned right,walked deeper and towards where the roof I saw was. My body stopped halfway. I looked up. The first thing I saw was the name "Gabriel" My heart just went crazy. I was shocked,amazed,scared,filled with hope and excitement. It was the first time I've been into the columbarium in St Teresa's,and I didn't even know that there were the names of 14 saints around the columbarium. Some may think that i'm lying,some may think that it's just a coincidence,but I know in my heart,that God was trying to send me a message. The meaning of the name Gabriel is "Messenger of God". I'm going to take Gabriel as my confirmation name and live my life as a Messenger of God.

I want to continue writing on the other amazing/retarded/fun things that happened in this camp ; being slained during Praise and Worship,going up with Marianne in front of everyone to give our testimonies,the different retarded fun facils I met,the fun we all had,so on and so forth. But i'll honestly take forever to write about all three days.

After CC3 Camp,I had lunch with  Joel,Jonathan,Zachery,Iggy,Victor and Marianne at J8,and Me Zachery and Victor went to Jon's house to play soccer and his xbox after lunch.

This entire CC3 Camp has really made such a huge impact on my life. I was hesitant to go for the camp,but now,I can honestly say that this experience was really worth it. Thank you Lord.